When I was first discharged from inpatient hospital, following my first admission at the age of 14, my sister bought me a book. It was so thoughtful of her and I am still so grateful, but that’s a side note I should probably discuss with her personally.
The book was called, as you may well have heard of before, Feel the Fear and do it anyway by Susan Jeffers. It is described on the cover as “the phenomenal classic that has changed the lives of millions”, and the one that I have is a 20th anniversary edition.
At the time, I was too wrapped up in my own selfish and debilitating anxiety. I was hating and relenting the recovery process from mental illnesses I wouldn’t allow myself to believe that I had, despite my diagnosis, medication and the one that I have is a 20th anniversary edition.
At the time, I was too wrapped up in my own selfish and debilitating anxiety. I was hating and relenting the recovery process from mental illnesses I wouldn’t allow myself to believe that I had, despite my diagnosis, medication and admission to a hospital ward and then inpatient facility. I let it slide as my panic attacks ruled my existence, and I was forced into eating every single day, utterly hating myself until that fateful relapse and my second admission that I left last week.
Before I was discharged my care co-ordinator GB recommended this book to me as she saw anxiety consume me at even the thought of doing very normal, every-day social tasks, as well as ultimately taking responsibility for my own Anorexia Nervosa. I knew I had it at home and had to admit I had never actually read it.
So you know, even “felt the fear and did it anyway” when initially picking up the book and beginning to read.
I am currently around ¾ through and have read it so fast. It just GETS ME.
The reason I began this post was an extract from the book that really took me physical surprise and may have ultimately “clicked” something in my brain.
It is found midway through the chapter “Pollyanna Rides Again” *** (page 70 and 71 for reference) and references an experiment that she did in one of her classes on anxiety.
“I learned an amazing way to demonstrate the effectiveness of positive versus negative thinking from Jack Canfield, co-author of the Chicken Soup for the Soul series and President of the Self-Esteem Seminars, which I have used in my workshops. I ask someone to come up and stand facing the rest of the class. After making sure the person has no problems with her (or his) arms, I ask my volunteer to make a fist and extend either arm out to the side. I then tell them to resist, with as much strength as they can muster, as I stand facing her and attempt to push her arm down with my outstretched hand. Not once have I succeeded in pushing her arm down in my initial trial.
I then ask her to put her arm down, close her eyes and repeat ten times the negative statement “I am a weak and unworthy person.” I tell her to really get the feel of the statement. When she has repeated the statement ten times, I ask her to open her eyes and extend her arm again exactly as she had before. I remind her to resist as hard as she can. Immediately, I am able to bring down her arm. It is as though all the strength has left her…
(She goes on to repeat the experiment as people are so amazed and the volunteer is adamant that she “wasn’t ready”, but again the same thing happens.)
I then ask the volunteer once again to close her eyes repeat ten times the positive statement “I am a strong and worthy person.” Again I tell her to really get into the feeling of the words. Once again I ask her to extend her arm and resist my pressure. To her amazement (and everyone else’s) I cannot budge the arm. In fact, it is more steadfast than the first time I tried to push it down.
If I continue interspersing positive with negative, the same results occur… By the way for you skeptics out there- I tried this experiment when I was unaware of what the volunteer was saying. I left the room, and the class decided whether the statement should be positive or negative. It didn’t matter. Weak words meant a weak arm. Strong words meant a strong arm.
This is a stunning demonstration of the power of the words we speak. Positive words make us physically strong; negative words make us physically weak.”
If your reaction is anything like mine, you’re dumfounded, right?
She goes on to say that it doesn’t even matter if we believe the words or not, it is what our subconscious hears from our internal chattering mind that determines how we feel and act.
This may well have changed my life.
The chapter goes on to explain how positive mantras can be completely life changing, as you are reaching out to the strong part of your subconscious mind and therefore making a physical and emotional change for yourself. It is all in your control.
I HIGHLY recommend this book.
Please let me know your thoughts below.
*** “Pollyanna is a delightful story about a young girl who made a game out of finding “something to be glad about” in anything negative that came into her life. Over the years this kind of “Pollyanna” thinking has been maligned as being naïve and unrealistic.”
The book Feel the Fear and do it anyway is the work of Susan Jeffers and was first published in 1987, reproduced in 2007 by The Random House Group Limited